railgun

    I have a weird announcement, I got through the thesis defense so if all goes well I will be starting doctors next month and my adventure will continue for 3 more years. I am pretty resistant to homesickness as it is right now and talking to the folks through skype, etc. is getting more and more distant as time goes on as if I am talking to someone I don't really know, bad feeling to look at your own family and feel like a stranger to them.

    I don't recall mentioning this other tidbit of info, no more Venezuelans are coming to this university at least for a year so I will be an even more rare being around here, band news... the atmosphere in the band is kinda weird I would say, at least for me. The biggest reason I am showing up recently is because I am pretty sorry that person quit mostly because of me and I feel like I took something away from everyone; even if it isn't really that, it is how I feel so it cannot be helped right now. Could guess half the women hate my guts, but that is all that it is a guess and a wild one at that. I just don't know

   I get to play in the nearby park again on August 8th, got asked to do 3 ensembles, got asked as a favor to do 1, then asked again to do another... then the third time the guy was sorry to ask me again to play something for that day, guess he also knows I kinda feel bad and to some degree he is taking advantage of it.


   Summary of my life now, I need to get better at handling guilt I guess... it is going to cost me eventually.