The big concert happened, I managed to play well and live to everyone expectations. The organizer was thankful that I played and everyone was praising me left and right so it was a good mood. We gave a present to sally for handling all the calling and scheduling of the clarinet part, she was very happy and broke the silence with me and just said "your solo was lovely as always". Anyhow at the second party(in japan we have the normal party then like an afterparty known as 二次会 or nijikai) during then I talked to her she said she wanted to forget about everything tha happened recently and just work on our friendship. I think I have one too many tequilas or something but since I like her I decided to confess up right then and there.. she was already ignoring me most of this month so if it comes to worse nothing would change, I know she has a boyfriend so I said this something like this "I like you and I am aware there is someone else you like and it is not me(implying her boyfriend) and that is ok." then I proceeded to tell her about me getting rejected for the disney tickets by her etc. She said she had no clue and she was really happy to hear that, after that though she got really quiet and shy just staring down. Since I noticed she wasnt gonna respond anymore with anything besides nods I just told her "lets leave it up to here for now". A girl I met the day of the concert was praising me to hell all day. She was honored to play with me etc, really pretty too... shame I didnt get her contact info, most of the girls of the clarinet part were really proud of me it seems. I think all I did was straigthen up my thoughts about Sally, we have to meet on white day because I gotta return her chocolates(she hasn't cancelled this maybe she forgot) anyways she likes a kids character called コジコジ so I got a bridal shop to design cookies to the likeness of that character... smallest order was 5 so I gotta hand her 5 cookies. Honestly I don't know what happened since she wasn't really talking anymore she seemed to be smiling while looking down(at least a crooked smile)
Maybe I fucked up, but I think I am doing the right thing at least. At least I gathered the balls to tell her knowing I would crash and burn the whole time.
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