Well last time I spoke was a while ago, so I will line up things... I was doubting myself as a clarinet player not to long ago with the incident just read back, think I am finally ok with what happened to kinda make myself practice I signed myself up for a solo contest, lost on the first round but it was a lot of fun and met a lot of great people the comments from the judges were also very helpful on what to work on.
My research is also going better, it is showing promise at least and by the end of the year I think I can write to articles. I need 3 to graduate... before it didnt look possible at all but now it seems completely reasonable. I was requested to write one in Japanese by the end of September.
as I get older I become more of the mysterious clarinet player that is in a technical university, I already had one bad experience teaching someone... but to prove to myself I wouldn't let it get to me I started teaching someone else, we went to see a concert together and things got scary when I heard a lot of phrases I had heard before.
"I wish I had entered your school, you'd be there for me everyday" and the like
she is very honest about improving and has no interest in me I believe, also messages me in the middle of the night with questions "how do I play this" etc. She has a lot of talent so if she keeps it up I am sure she will overtake me in no time. She is in a clarinet camp right now, wonder how real teachers compare to what I have been teaching her.
I have nothing to do in Obon, nowhere to go back to and everyone goes back to their own hometown so I asked a girl(thought I would get rejected) to eat a burger, strangely enough she accepted and it was pretty darn great I think. Her kickoff comment about me stung a bit though, "you never post sad things on your social media, but I bet you are the weak type that cries on their own." also learned that she has quite a lot of info on me, birthday, age etc. Honestly, it felt really good to get messages from the morning we went out, but man that comment stung.
