so I guess I was slightly popular during valentines... after that a lot has happened. First of all for the next concert we were planning to do a clarinet ensemble, an octet, practice was not going so well but I believed everyone was going to put in some work and we would have it sorted out in time. Suddenly, one person withdraws this will get kinda like a novel so get your pens I will call this person Debbie, so she suddenly just mails everyone saying she isn't showing for the concert anymore and that she is sorry and she is gone. I am at the clubroom and one girl from the clarinet part wants to talk to me about it, lets call her Sally, I ask Sally if she actually wanted to do the ensemble and she said nope I actually don't we were discussing what we were gonna do, I just tell her I am not gonna force to do anything so I am probably going to call it off myself, after that I guess she didn't find me as a decent conversation partner so she went to get advice from some other girls, honestly I got kinda mad about this so after a while I just picked up my things and left as I was leaving she calls my name and in my head I was all "oh, now you want to talk to me!" so I ignored her and left(Sally is the girl that convinced me to stay on the band in the first place). That night after I get home Debbie is back on the concert she says, Another friend lets call him Carl, he works on the pamphelts and things so he already did all the work removing Debbie from everything so he has to put her back in everything, Carl is pissed and he is vocal about it, but willing to work.
Day 2 begins, I meet Sally in the morning she apologizes to me about ignoring me the day before, I tell her it is nothing and that we should talk more about it in the practice with the other players she agrees(or so I believed) we get there and then I get ignored all day again and she gathers everyone but me to do the discussion. Anyways, a vote goes on for who wants to do it, I voted I am willing to play, Sally said no, Carl was still pissed so he went off again on the chat. Now I need to make a break here, while I was being ignored and not part of the clarinet talk on this day Debbie's boyfriend his name shall be Roger approaches me and says "please, I had to talk to my girlfriend a lot to convince her to come back please be nice" in my head I was all "damn, I can't do anything for you son, I am getting ignored by everyone right now". Now skip back to Carl going nuts at Debbie for being so wishy washy during that I just got "we cannot work together like this, peace" and leave the chat. Right at this moment Another girl... lets say Heather messages me and asks me if I am ok and that she is sorry for whatever happened for the record until that point I was scared shitless of Heather, she is a psych student, but is incredibly crafty in dealing with people to a degree that scares me, also she just broke up with a good friend of mine so it is difficult to talk to her I guess without me getting murdered(I still live in Venezuela in my head sometimes) anyhow I wait for things to cool off and apologize to very girl, Another girl, lets call her Susan, says "please don't worry about it, I like you a lot so don't believe I am mad!"(now that I see it it is very hard to word in English) Sally responds with a flag "I am fine! dont worry about me please!" this one was dry was heck so I talk to her to see if she has time, she says she is busy today and the day after and actually this week is very hard to meet at all.
Skip to the weekend, practice goes as usual, I am kinda down because I am certain Sally hates my guts now turns out I wasn't wrong at all. The peak was when the song changed and she had to sit next to me and she went "I don't want to sit next to this guy" after all we have been through that kinda hurt me to be honest, so after that I set her aside and talk to her, honestly I started really weird now that I reminiscence about it, I said "are you really ok with this? not being even able to sit next to me" she said really softly "no" honestly if someone does that I normally send all to hell, but Sally is nice so she is worth going the extra mile I explain her that last year I had exactly the same situation and also about the girlfriend thing the situation.... I get a shocker, she says she is mad since December, that was just the last drop, last December we did an ensemble together in Christmas after it she told me the first thing i said was "we should invite Heather to do a quartet" , I will explain myself here we were three people and we just played as a trio, but used the quartet music so we were lacking one person all along. Anyways she felt that I didn't need her so me ignoring her made her feel that I didn't need her even less. Conclusion, she says she needs time for things to cool down. She said at least until after the concert
Skip to midnight, I get a mail Sally says "It is not that I hate you or anything like that, I just got mad, so please be nice to me as you were before"(again the exact japanese is hard to word in english) I say sure and also that I will be more careful from now on.
Day 2 begins, I meet Sally in the morning she apologizes to me about ignoring me the day before, I tell her it is nothing and that we should talk more about it in the practice with the other players she agrees(or so I believed) we get there and then I get ignored all day again and she gathers everyone but me to do the discussion. Anyways, a vote goes on for who wants to do it, I voted I am willing to play, Sally said no, Carl was still pissed so he went off again on the chat. Now I need to make a break here, while I was being ignored and not part of the clarinet talk on this day Debbie's boyfriend his name shall be Roger approaches me and says "please, I had to talk to my girlfriend a lot to convince her to come back please be nice" in my head I was all "damn, I can't do anything for you son, I am getting ignored by everyone right now". Now skip back to Carl going nuts at Debbie for being so wishy washy during that I just got "we cannot work together like this, peace" and leave the chat. Right at this moment Another girl... lets say Heather messages me and asks me if I am ok and that she is sorry for whatever happened for the record until that point I was scared shitless of Heather, she is a psych student, but is incredibly crafty in dealing with people to a degree that scares me, also she just broke up with a good friend of mine so it is difficult to talk to her I guess without me getting murdered(I still live in Venezuela in my head sometimes) anyhow I wait for things to cool off and apologize to very girl, Another girl, lets call her Susan, says "please don't worry about it, I like you a lot so don't believe I am mad!"(now that I see it it is very hard to word in English) Sally responds with a flag "I am fine! dont worry about me please!" this one was dry was heck so I talk to her to see if she has time, she says she is busy today and the day after and actually this week is very hard to meet at all.
Skip to the weekend, practice goes as usual, I am kinda down because I am certain Sally hates my guts now turns out I wasn't wrong at all. The peak was when the song changed and she had to sit next to me and she went "I don't want to sit next to this guy" after all we have been through that kinda hurt me to be honest, so after that I set her aside and talk to her, honestly I started really weird now that I reminiscence about it, I said "are you really ok with this? not being even able to sit next to me" she said really softly "no" honestly if someone does that I normally send all to hell, but Sally is nice so she is worth going the extra mile I explain her that last year I had exactly the same situation and also about the girlfriend thing the situation.... I get a shocker, she says she is mad since December, that was just the last drop, last December we did an ensemble together in Christmas after it she told me the first thing i said was "we should invite Heather to do a quartet" , I will explain myself here we were three people and we just played as a trio, but used the quartet music so we were lacking one person all along. Anyways she felt that I didn't need her so me ignoring her made her feel that I didn't need her even less. Conclusion, she says she needs time for things to cool down. She said at least until after the concert
Skip to midnight, I get a mail Sally says "It is not that I hate you or anything like that, I just got mad, so please be nice to me as you were before"(again the exact japanese is hard to word in english) I say sure and also that I will be more careful from now on.
