In travel news, I headed to tokyo to renew my passport, got that done and also sent my clarinet in to get maintanance at a famous saxophone shop in tokyo, ishimori... the technician was quite shocked that I had not only one, but two 50 year old clarinets with me haha. Only had enough dough to get 1 fixed. The one in better condition.
Pineapple soda motherfuckers, I loved this shit in Venezuela, it pains me to say this one is clear color and has no deadly yellow number 5 to poison every organ in my body, shame.
I have decided to hide interesting details in the bottom, only certain people will read this far and in english I guess. Recently I have not really been getting along well with the brass band, I feel... used to say the least, throw at me everything they cant play and just assume I want to do it, smiles and politeness, one hilarious example is, I usually get asked to practice with one flute player. So this one girl is recently asking to join us on those separate sessions, she likes the dude, heck I think I am straight up jealous, anyhow I guess I pay attention I have good memory I can see, notice, remember the signs, rolling eyes, etc. So I have just stopped attending those practices we used to have and let those two at it and not be a... burden as you can say. A friend noticed and told me "man Juan, you are picky as fuck with friends" because well from outside it seems like... yeah I just hate everyone in that case and as I have been told before, I guess my demeanor is hard to read, people don't know when I am angry or happy, en English, Japanese or Spanish not that I try to communicate it. In this case I am just impressed, she was willing to put up with me to have more time with flute-dude so I stepped aside. More friendly banter the other guy told me that my issue was the language barrier, that even though i was good I was not Japanese yet, so that animosity I felt in general comes from it.
In all honestly, I rarely talk about my own efforts or things I have accomplished, I think with good reason. Japanese, I have worked hard.... if the wall is still there, I guess it will either stay or I will work to make it the best god damn wall there is. Unapproachable Juan sounds tempting right about now. My research is going okay gotta publish a paper soon, will see if I get into the conference, I ear-copied a tune for clarinet and have been practicing it non-stop.
To wrap it up, I guess what I want to say about the band right now...but it is weird as heck. I cannot really convey what goes on there recently in a short and coherent way. I practice like a madman because I am used to it, I used to play clarinet for a living so I have that routine in me... and I don't expect them to be good,better or worse than me, I just expect an answer regarding the effort I put in. I never thought I would hate being taken for granted this much. Like all I do has no value at all. I wish I as pissed at one person, but it seems almost global so I guess that is the instance where I am being the dick and I can be even aware of who is being a douche-bag I guess(me). Recently I take in general that everyone assumes I am some magical gnome that does everything without putting any work or something and the fact that I put my "magical abilities" at your disposal is somehow not even granted with a "thank you". I guess getting this off my chest was good even in shoddy writing.
if I feel like joining the next concert I guess I will be playing this tune.
