A very special dance

 I remembered today there was a show called “a very special dance” in Venezuela… it was like dancing with the stars, but all the couples had someone with Down’s syndrome.

https://youtu.be/qhptV2H0EEM?si=JSR7C1GPwhuBHwmW

This is cursed knowledge that I know lay upon others, for updates on my end playing saxophone keeps me distracted from my recent love live woes, I am safe here no way she knows this exists and I severely doubt she wants anything to do with me ever again, but I have come to believe it is for the best.

In other news a very famous clarinet player is following me now on instagram and I gotta figure out why that happened I don’t upload content often or good content to begin with.

Work end I have become a jack of all trades so I help like 5 teams at once right now, I don’t feel any stronger when layoffs happen but I guess it gives me a ton of skills if it does happen! 

I am pretty resilient, living completely isolated from family and friends for well over a decade kinda changes how you brain works, I realize I am in a sad situation no matter how you look at it, but I am very aware it could be worse, now that I have burdened other people with knowledge.

Miracles do end, it is what it is

 Well to put it simply, broke up, she dumped me.

That’s fine and dandy, the aftermath still feels weird, got told she likes me and wants to be friends, but every time we talked she just made it about how we are never going back together and basically an artillery bombardment on me.

I feel I am in the reasonable end of people and can deal with most abuse if there is any… but I just decided to cut it off, block, delete you name it, it just doesn’t make sense to keep in contact in those terms. It helps to write it so it makes sense on my head too. I tried to be friendly the best way I can, it just wasn’t happening.

I don’t need to complain about anything at this point what’s done is done, I just feel weird that it needed to get to that point to attempt to find peace, honestly I wish I could talk in detail about it with someone, but I think some trips to the gym and some “it is what it is” to myself will have to do.

I gotta hold that L, it drove me to buy a saxophone to focus my brain on something else, I am getting quite good at it let’s say haha, every time my brain wanders off I just start playing that or clarinet as therapy.

Work is going quite well, I got rewarded for like every single thing I did… employee of the month deal kinda of stuff.

I can write safely, we never got to talk about this existing.

Miracles do happen

 I guess updating very rarely does make for the possibility of juicy updates, a yearly manga sort of speak, for the very few people that even follow this, I met someone by happenstace… she said on Twitter she had extra tickets to a concert and well I decided to bite, I wanted to see that concert and I could t reserve tickets on time.

We had a great day and to my surprise she asked for my  line address, we do talk normally for a few days until I mentioned I had a great day and she gets mad at me and says that “I thought you had 0 interest why didnt you say that sooner” so we plan a couple more dates.

I tried to confess outside Disney, she wasn’t having any of i, told me to try again n t time and I should have done it at Cinderella castle.

So I found a nice spot after an aquarium date and she said yes.

She does live far from me right now, but I guess working full time it’s not like I can meet her at all times so I will try to figure out a way to make it work.

Can’t be posting her face everywhere so privately I can share.

Burlesque

 A friend is getting married soon and he wanted to do a bachelor party in Roppongi, so we went to a burlesque place, I never go to places like that so it was quite fun… I do have pictures, just ask me on another social network if you want to see them.

One of the girls was ridiculously good looking and there wasn’t many people in the store, friends even bought the champagne from her, I gotta say she earned… another spoke perfect English and spent most of her time near us, I think she also earned her drinks.

The day after I had to farm stuff in ff14 at 6 am so after that I headed home early like a nerd, my brain was off the first 30 mins.

On other news I gotta set up my practice for my concert, my lunch today was unagi or eel… I did t have any so I guess it was a good chance as any.

Pics of my unagi, I will report more frequently here so I end this with very melon 🍈 

Setting up a routine

 Well I gained some weight during corona… I used to be more active so to reduce the amount of antimatter in other universes to compensate for my existence I will try to lose some weight… I also think I need better cardio for clarinet playing. So I am climbing up the temple near where I live every day when I work from home.

Getting my ass up these stairs for now 

I have entered the battlefield of hololive goods again, it is fun I guess, I usually don’t bother with that kind of thing 

I also added reading actual books to the routine, I am trying to alternate between English and Japanese, so I touch intellectual grass from internet outlets, right now I am reading a novel called Anomaly.

Gyoumu Super

 By popular demand, and I mean a single person pushing for me to write again on this format... I will revive the blog with one of the best URLs you can get. I will just go on my merry way and pretend the gap between posts does not exist

I am now in the metropolitan area of the country, but there is something that is shared across cities, I guess it is a supermarket that is actually meant for restaurants or other stores to buy from, you could say their target is wholesale... but they happen to have stuff from overseas(mostly Mexico stuff I care about) like tortillas. Ideally, someplace will have Venezuelan stuff easily available, they just do not understand the greatness of Arepas just yet

In work, I have been asked to branch out and help in more areas, and this seems good, I get to learn a lot... but at the same time, it seems I am covering three times as much stuff as I was before, I just hope the remuneration will catch up eventually

unattended produce is a classic in Japan

generic brand stuff is godlike at low prices

In clarinet news, I have a concert next month, fairly difficult pieces but I think I will be fine, my own solo concert next year seems troublesome I have not been practicing enough and someone that is way better than me offered to play with me so even if I play my best I am in trouble.

keep it short, so I can write more stuff some other days

good meat day

I have been listening to podcasts a lot more often recently, mostly how stuff works and freakonomics, the format seems to rub off on my head as I go about my day.

On that note yesterday for me in Japan it was Heisei 29th year November 29th  now this 2-9 combination recently in Japan has a connotation with eating meat, the 29th of each month is known as niku no hi or well 肉の日 now the reason they call it that is that you can make a pun with 2 and 9 in Japanese "ni" and "ku", alright all you people that are going to push your glasses up your nose and say it is "kyuu" instead, depending on the case "ku" is actually correct. This matches the pronunciation for meat so it has become a custom recently in stores and other places to push you into eating meat in this fateful day of the month.

Japanese meat consumption is split between pork and chicken and beef lags behind at around 20 kg for white meat and 10kg for the one I didn't mention before. It was much lower years before actually, for some reason Japan has been trying to increase its meat consumption. The US  average meat intake a year is at around 35kgs  in the case of beef now this numbers are all from the top of my head and I think it is better that I keep it this way, you can go on google and just get better data yourself.

that ends the random talk of the day so you can go at any 29th of a month and go "did you know that recently in Japan...." and show off. To go back to my own life, I just handed my second paper to my professor so I think my graduation is lining up to happen if I am lucky this Sunday I got to take the N1 Japanese Proficiency Test, I took it 2 years ago and failed by two points, scared of similar results I didn't have the guts to sign up again, people younger than me have encouraged me to just give it a shot. At least I can measure if I am better than I was 2 years ago(99 points as a goal to still fail)

if any of you read Hajime no Ippo, well damn that recent chapter hit like a brick, such a long series taking that turn is just sad. I always make the promise to update this more often, but I will keep at it as often as I can. It is relaxing between writing other kinds of things nowadays.